I am back to thinking I am maybe dreaming too big a dream. Can I really go to Nepal for two months? Can I teach or do volunteer work? Can I do the EBC trek? Do I really want too? Am I stepping too far out of my comfort zone? Should I just instead travel around the USA?
I know I can accomplish all the above, but it will be a lot of work to get there. Will it be worth it? My mind keeps swinging back and forth on a daily basis. Maybe I just need to get away, get out of the house, get out of Texas and away from this scorching heat. Maybe a bit of adventure will inspire me to get excited once again. Even now feeling doubtful about this trip, when I think of standing at the base of Mount Everest I feel the calling to go there. To accomplish such a huge goal for myself would give my life greater meaning. Do I need that though? Is it just my ego? vanity? self indulgence? What is driving me to attempt this? Do I stay here or do I go there?
I think I know I will regret it if I do not attempt this. I don't want to grow old gracefully. I want to fill my remaining years seeking adventure, experiencing new cultures, people and living life.
The local TV station was conducting a poll today on at what age do you think a person is old... my answer was - ten years older than whatever age I am.
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