Doubts have been plaguing me lately. I've set such a big goal for almost a too distant future. I know I need the three years I've set to prepare but it allows so much time for something to go wrong. I think that is what is worrisome for me. I spend every morning doing my workout, I pray for a nice cool morning on the weekend to go hiking. I am planning hiking trips in the next few years to train for this, but then what if it all just falls apart? I tell myself though that if nothing else I am getting stronger and in much better shape than I was, which is a good thing. I suppose I would feel better about this and more confident if I could get out now and go hiking. Freaking Texas summers! I hate the heat and humidity. I wanted so badly to get out and do things this past weekend but with heat indexes over 100f, I just can't do it. I was getting so depressed being cooped up inside.
I did do some thinking though about my finances and what and how I would prefer to spend my money. Oh I could re-do my bathroom, take my landscaping up a few notches, get a new sofa. But those are just things, what do they add to my life? Life is about experiences, not things. It is the experiences that we recall much more vividly and emotionally than the things we have. Oh I do have some things that make me smile. I am still happy ten years later that I did remodel my kitchen, but the remodel added to the joy of cooking and dining with my family that I did not get in the old small outdated one. So that added to the experience meal prep and eating.
I started this journey because I want to experience the world and see things I have only dreamed of. I need to stay focused on that.
Life is lived by experiencing the world, not possessing it.
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